Xanax Withdrawal is How I Imagine Hell Would Be

Xanax withdrawal is horrible.  Seriously, I would not wish it on my worst enemy.  During my first trip to rehab, all of my initial withdrawal symptoms were experienced in the hospital.  Since one of the main concerns with Xanax withdrawal is seizure, I had pads on my bed and was given Phenobarbital to help prevent […]

Change is Key to Recovery

Things have to change in order for anyone to recover.  This sounds like an obvious statement, but it’s so true and really key to any type of recovery.  The littlest habits or even certain people can be enough to trigger old ways.  Just like a smoker trying to quit, little details in life can get […]

People of Rehab Trip One

I had no idea what to expect when it came to the people inside the rehab facility.  After all, it’s also the psychiatric ward.  I had visions of several horror movies that involve insane asylums and definitely was preparing for the worst… People of Rehab There was only one horror-like person that was moaning and […]

Intervention and Trip Number One to Rehab

My intervention was nothing like you see on TV, but it was definitely an intervention.  Since I surely didn’t believe that I had a problem, it took some coaxing (and kicking and screaming) to get me into a rehab facility. My Intervention As I mentioned in my post about how my addiction progressed, my sister […]

How My Addiction Progressed

Back to how my addiction to Xanax began… looking back, it feels like it didn’t take long to get hooked at all.  I can remember feeling like it was a magic little pill.  Not only did it make me feel better, but it made me feel good… really good.  My stress and anxiety would melt […]

My GAD Diagnosis and Prescriptions

I was eventually diagnosed with GAD – Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  There came a time in my early twenties when my panic attacks took a turn for the creepy.  They morphed into something a lot more twisted and alarming to me and I really couldn’t deal. What was happening to me occurred almost every night around […]

My First Anxiety Attack

I had my first anxiety attack when I was 16 years old.  I am now 34 but remember it pretty clearly.  At this age I was a typical teen, but also extra-obsessed with my looks.  At the time I had started taking *Stacker II (pretty intense diet pill back when ephedrine was around) and was […]