Get Through the Bad Days

So, I was having a really bad day the other day and started typing away here.  I never published it, but also didn’t delete it.  I am going to post it now because I made it through the rough couple of days that I was having.  At the time I felt like I couldn’t breathe.  […]

Xanax Withdrawal is How I Imagine Hell Would Be

Xanax withdrawal is horrible.  Seriously, I would not wish it on my worst enemy.  During my first trip to rehab, all of my initial withdrawal symptoms were experienced in the hospital.  Since one of the main concerns with Xanax withdrawal is seizure, I had pads on my bed and was given Phenobarbital to help prevent […]

Change is Key to Recovery

Things have to change in order for anyone to recover.  This sounds like an obvious statement, but it’s so true and really key to any type of recovery.  The littlest habits or even certain people can be enough to trigger old ways.  Just like a smoker trying to quit, little details in life can get […]

Intervention and Trip Number One to Rehab

My intervention was nothing like you see on TV, but it was definitely an intervention.  Since I surely didn’t believe that I had a problem, it took some coaxing (and kicking and screaming) to get me into a rehab facility. My Intervention As I mentioned in my post about how my addiction progressed, my sister […]

How My Addiction Progressed

Back to how my addiction to Xanax began… looking back, it feels like it didn’t take long to get hooked at all.  I can remember feeling like it was a magic little pill.  Not only did it make me feel better, but it made me feel good… really good.  My stress and anxiety would melt […]